And here we are… Five days have already flown by from the New Year and somehow my mind is still running towards the nice Holiday decorations left around town. I guess I’m holding on to the last glimpse of magic because after all the celebrations are gone I can’t help but feel a little bit empty.
Just like any transitional period, I think that the time after Christmas and New Year’s is that uncertain moment when you don’t really know what to do with yourself, but you could also do… ANYTHING. The New Year can be used as a new beginning for everything you wanted and – maybe even more important – for drawing the line, making an inventory of the last year and analyzing if you’re heading on the right direction.
I think resolutions are good because it makes our life be more intentional. I always make some at the end of each year, even if they’re small ones.
While 2017 was a very difficult year for me, filled with a lot of disappointments, heartbreaks and setbacks, I’m still very grateful for it because through all that struggle and torment it has shown me what I really want, what is really important to me and what my values really are.
I used to have a different outlook in life, but now I view hardships as tests and indicators to not only try my character and who I truly am at my core, but also if I want something bad enough. It’s kinda like the Universe saying: “Are you strong enough to be yourself, or are you going to get swayed and detracted by everything else from your path?”
While there are quite a few regrets I accumulated throughout my lifetime, what is NOT a regret is the depth of my feelings and my stubborn passion with which I follow my dreams.
I’ve been knocked down, rejected, manipulated, hurt, humiliated and criticized. Yet, I’ll never compromise my heart and my goals for anything.
Yes, there are moments when I get distracted and I allow my environment to dictate how I should be living my life and what I should be doing with it, but then something drastic happens that shakes me to my core and I get reminded that in life we must do what is right, not what’s easy. So with that being said, I’ll start with my goals for 2018…
One of the regrets I have for my 20’s is that I stayed in toxic relationships for longer than I should’ve.
I accepted things that were hurting me and making me miserable out of complacency and mostly out of the fear of the pain that it will bring to cut ties with what was bad, yet strangely familiar. It’s weird. We think that cutting ties with something toxic is like a walk in the park and all the sudden the sun rises where there used to be clouds and butterflies fly everywhere and all the flowers around you bloom. But the reality is that even though something is bad for you, it still hurts to let it go. I never really realized this, but once I accepted it, it made leaving negative situations behind that much easier.
So one of the resolutions I have for 2018 is to attract and cultivate more meaningful relationships with people that share my interests. I’m only interested in healthy, beautiful, positive and supportive vibes. I have no more time for half measures.
One of the resolutions I have for 2018 is to attract and cultivate more meaningful relationships with people that share my interests. I’m only interested in healthy, beautiful, positive and supportive vibes.
Another new goal I have in life is to get married on Christmas Day.
I know, I know, you guys are going to think it’s extremely cheesy and corny and bla bla… But I really want this. I got inspired by this amazing human being Ali Gordon (follow his Instagram here) and his incredible declaration of love.
I thought to myself that what a better present for Christmas, (the Holiday that means the most to me) than two people giving their hearts to one another and the promise of eternal love? To me that’s more precious than any possible material gift.
Maybe not this year, maybe not in five, maybe not in ten years from now on… But one day I will make this dream come true. And I will have a big bouquet of red roses (just like they had), an incredibly fashionable dress (haha), we’ll slow dance and my dad will walk me down the isle. I hate big weddings so most important in my opinion is to be meaningful for both of us, but to also share our happiness with the ones dear to us and the whole wide world.
I know that a lot of people think that what you see and read on blogs or social media is not really “real”. But…
Before someone jumps down my throat and tells me “well, the life you see on Instagram is all fabricated and staged”, I would like to take a moment to say something.
Yes, maybe some of the photos are filtered and maybe we do present only our “highlight reel”, but beyond the mobile and computer screens the people on Instagram and all the bloggers are real people. And we hurt, we cry, we have challenges and we work really hard too. If we chose to focus more on the beautiful parts of life, it’s because that’s what we want to create. At least I know I do! With everything I put out I have the intention to not only express myself authentically, but to also create a beautiful world in which creativity and imagination rule, and even the most mundane things can be elevated to the degree of art.
Which leads me to…
One of my biggest career resolutions is to be a creative / art director for a fashion house. I dream about it every day and every night before I go to bed. I imagine fabulous sets and incredibly exuberant costumes and outfits.
I envision so many scenarios, from film noir and futuristic themes to romantic settings filled with flowers and rivers of sheer tule. I see exactly how I would film it or photograph it and edit it. I hear the music in my head and my skin shivers with goosebumps at the thought of the dance between the lights and the enmeshment of textures, layers, materials. I see every small detail that I would put in a graphic design layout and every word written for a magazine article. There’s just this incredible reservoir of ideas in my head that screams and begs to be let out.
And in my vision I work with incredibly nice and talented people that believe in what they do and they believe in beauty, purity and art.
One of my biggest career resolutions is to be a creative / art director for a fashion house.
Participate in a runway fashion show during Fashion Week
I had this dream for a while now and while it totally terrifies me because I have no idea what I should do, how I should behave or what I should wear – I want this so badly because it means a lot to me.
I can only hope to – one day, soon – be part of all that effervescence and creative inspiration and to be able to absorb all the amazingness of a fashion show. The combination between the dreamy clothes, the hair, the make-up, the styling, the music, the venue, the design and everything in between is something that I’m so excited to attend to and draw inspiration from.
Save enough money to buy my own apartment / house
Another goal that might not be possible to attain just right now, but eventually, is to be able to save enough money to have my own place.
It might sound materialistic, but I’m seriously so tired of moving guys! I’ve moved so many times and not just from place to place, but also from continent to continent and city to city that I’m so ready to have my own little nest to nurture, cherish and create in.
It’s important for my creative output to have a stable and safe place to allow my creativity and imagination to unleash. When I feel like the place I’m in is constantly subject to unforeseen events and disruptions it makes me tense up and not be in the creative flow as I should be.
I love seeing new things and having a flexible and dynamic lifestyle, but without a home base to return to and create in, all that means nothing.
A big big dream I had ever since I was five or six years old was to have a home with a fireplace. And sturdy, natural hardwood floors. The texture of wood gives me such a sense of comfort and warmth! Also big windows with flowy curtains that are opening up to a great view, but also give privacy when needed.
Have a fashion photo shoot in London
Never been to London before but always had this idea of how beautiful and unique it is… Something like Harry Potter meets Kingsman (the first one!).
So naturally, I’m fantasizing about the narrow streets and old buildings, the smell of tea and hiding in bookstores during rainy days. I’d really love to shoot a dramatic look somewhere near an old and typical British building, surrounded by all the history and stories of the old world.
Thank you so much for reading! What are your New Year’s Resolutions? Let me know below, I always love hearing about people’s dreams.
Much love ❤️