Hello my darlings. I can’t believe that only a week ago we were told to evacuate our house and take shelter from the devastating Hurricane Irma. It’s strange how time feels different sometimes, especially when we are faced with hardships. After a few agonizing hours of packing my most important possessions (documents, papers, my laptop, a backup hard drive, a couple of clothes and my kitty), a long 12 hour road trip to Nashville, Tennessee (the only city that still had hotel rooms available) and a few days of mental anguish, I’m back home – safe and sound – and more grateful than ever to have the opportunity to be creative and work towards my dreams.
But in a way, as weird as this might sound, I am happy I went through this negative experience because it helped me realize a few things about myself, about trying times, life and what’s really important.
- The first one – and the most important to me – was: emotional support and emotional stability.
I can’t express to you how much it meant to me to have my parents and friends morally close to me, even though they weren’t there physically. I’ve always been like this, it always meant a lot to me to know that there’s someone out there in my corner, routing for me. As long as I have that trust and peace of mind, I can go move mountains and conquer the world.
I must admit that I’ve never felt a stronger need ever in my life to have an unshakable family connection and unbreakable emotional stability. Material possessions can be replaced, sometimes friendships come and go, our careers have good patches and bad patches, but when we know we have the support of our loved ones and we have the confidence that together we can overcome anything, we become unstoppable. That’s what security really means to me.
Emotional support is the most important in tough times.
- Strength sometimes means being vulnerable.
In our society we, many times, have this skewed representation of what strength means. It’s the person that never gets phased, never bats an eyelash, is always stone cold and always tough and unscathed. Well, while there are situations that call for that type of response, the reality is that in more normal situations, strength means having the courage to show your vulnerability. Sure, you can go through anything and you have a great capability to regenerate and adapt. But this doesn’t mean you’re not human and you don’t feel scared, or overwhelmed, or helpless or like you need a hug. And that’s ok!! Being real is so much more strong than hiding behind a “plastic” mask, or being in denial.
Yes, I did have moments when I cried and I was afraid when I was packing because I didn’t know what will happen to us in the next 24-48 hours and there were moments when I was trying to think where I would go if my home got destroyed and had no place to return to. Yes, I did have moments when I felt very lonely and lost, and I wished I had the warm embrace of my mom and dad around me, even though I’m an “adult” now. And yes, I did miss the comfort of my bed and cooking a delicious meal while playing music and dancing in the kitchen, while I was stranded in a hotel room. But even though I had those moments, deep down I knew that I will be ok and this too shall pass and the Sun will shine bright and beautiful again.
You see, it’s impossible to be happy and “perfect” 24/7, but that doesn’t mean we’re weak. It means we have the strength to be FULLY human. And anyone who is trying to make you feel bad for being vulnerable, is actually the weakling.
Strength sometimes means being vulnerable
- Beauty can be found even in the darkest of times.
Even though I wish it was under different circumstances, seeing a little bit of Nashville was a cool experience. The hotel I stayed at was part of this beautiful resort called Opryland and it had these enchanted tropical gardens with waterfalls, koi fish rivers and twinkling lights everywhere. I found myself getting lost many times on the winding paths of the grounds, just like Alice chasing the rabbit down the rabbit hole in Wonderland (which happened to be the theme of the resort for the weekend). I remember staying on a bench behind a waterfall one night and thinking to myself how I could live for the rest of my life in a tropical magical garden, protected by palm trees and colorful plants and surrounded by exotic birds and little creatures.
Nature showed me that one can find peace, safety and soothing even in the midst of chaos, if we just remember to turn inward and focus on what we really love. And while sometimes love for certain things or people transforms, there is an even stronger love waiting to bloom and light the gardens of our life.
Beauty can be found even in the darkest of times
Driving back was even worse, because I had to drive for 22 hours straight with little to no food and no rest, in a traffic that would rival with New York’s at the peak of rush hour. Needless to say, I was extremely relieved when I arrived home and found out that the city and everybody was ok. I slept for the majority of the next day and felt the need to immediately get back on track of health by cooking a big hearthy chicken soup, sauteed greens and tons of kale.
I also took a few videos around Nashville, only with my phone because I didn’t have my “good” camera and equipment with me, but I hope you’ll still enjoy checking out my mini vlog.
Thank you so much for reading! Much love ❤️